At the end of the night this is what there is: you there wanting something; me here wanting you. The whole world of this galaxy in between. Maybe one day the will all amount to something. At the end of the day, or perhaps, the very next morning.
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Manifesto
That was then and this is now. Five years or more.
It happens in a bowling alley, or at the end of a night.
There’s this water flowing freely under a bridge.
There’s Christ and good and something in between.
That all happened before now, and so much has happened since.
I like to think we have all moved on. I think we have.
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‘s responsible for “race?”
I haven’t followed that closely this whole “race-baiting” thread that’s been going back and forth between the Obama and Clinton camps that much. To be honest, it doesn’t really interest me that much other than it did not raise it’s head until now, when we are about to head into the Nevada caucuses and the SC primary, the first two primary states with substantial enough minority populations for race to be a factor. But today I read this article about good ole New York Rep. Charlie Rangel. He was once the man that I took the unpopular stance among my friends to side with over the issue of reinstating the draft. The way that issue got portrayed was that he was saying the draft is pure good and that we need it, when he was actually saying that if the sons of politicians were eligible to be conscripted, the congress might not take so lightly the decision to declare war. I understood this logic. But today I am baffled by his statements supporting Hillary Clinton’s recent MLK faux pas.
(As an aside, I am not so sure that I still agree with Rangel’s idea to reintroduce the draft. Upon further consideration over the last couple of years I have realized that the rich and powerful have always figured out ways to keep their kids from having to really be in the shit – e.g. our president (W))
Whereas the subsequent fallout of the Clinton MLK/LBJ statement does seem a little overblown to me, I do believe it is validly available for critique. She was being a politician, a white politician, and a white politician trying to win minority votes in the upcoming primaries. I do not disagree with her ends, I do disagree with the means. Stating that none of MLK’s dream would have been realized without an LBJ signature on the Civil Rights Act etc. is historically true. But what is also historically probable is that no white politician would have ever pushed for such legislative measures had MLK and others not put their lives on the line in creating the groundswell of support and indeed need for such measures.
All of the actions that MLK took (marching in Alabama and on the mall in DC, supporting the strikers in Memphis etc. etc. etc.) were selfless, heroic and courageous efforts. Whereas LBJ’s signing of the Civil Rights legislation could be considered all of these things given the political climate of the times, it cannot be said that all of his actions were as such, nor that they were done to nearly the magnitude and potential (and ultimate) cost to self that MLK did.
For Hillary to state things the way she did is reminiscent of all of those Hollywood movies about apartheid and South Africa in the 80s and early 90s. There always is a heroic black figure fighting for the rights of the people, but there is an even more empathetic and heroic white figure through which the American movie-going public can empathize with the effort and understand it’s importance. I am not saying that LBJ is a bad man. What I know of him I like (outside of the Vietnam stuff). But this many years on, we can recognize the LBJ efforts while recognizing that it pales in comparison to the civil rights efforts of MLK and his like. To state it like Hillary did is politically and rhetorically awkward and likely irresponsible.
With that said, I don’t think it really should be a factor in the upcoming primaries. I think that both Clinton and Obama have the best interest of the poor, the needy, minorities etc. in mind far more than most of the candidates on the Republican ticket do. All that they are able to talk about lately is tax cuts (how you can decide to take a pay cut when your credit card debt is as high as America’s is baffles me), 9/11, and how cool war is. I don’t imagine the plight of the poor, needy and minorities being any more improved by a Hillary or a Barack in the White House. I think they both mean well and will do all that they can.
So back to Rep. Rangel. His statements today wreak of so much political bullshit. Realizing that neither Hillary nor Bill can seem to fix this thing, and realizing that as the Nevada and SC primaries are approaching they don’t want to appear as still being on the attack, you get Rep. Rangel to do your attacking for you.
I did not agree with his statements in the article at all, but I was willing to take them as simple matters of opinion until I got to the end where he is quoted:
“I assume that the book was not written for political purposes. It was honest….It was a big mistake for him to have done it [used drugs.] For him to be honest enough to write about it, I guess he thought it might sell books.”
What would you rather him do Charlie? Would you rather him not addressed the drug-use issue in his memoir and just wait until the election where it would have likely arisen and then have to be addressed (surely better than the awkward “i tried but didn’t inhale” defense of Bill Clinton, or the outright denial and “will you shut up about it now” defense of our current president). Surely if this information would have been kept out of the book and revealed now, it would’ve been just the ticket to get Hillary to the general election most expeditiously. In it’s absence, Charlie’s left beating the dead horse that he hoped Hillary would use to take her there. Who looks stupid now? -
Will the Internet shut down?
So I just started this week at a new Job with CNN, and whereas it has been an interesting start, I have kind of had to do a roll-your-own training schedule that has left me with lots of time to check out the site and keep up with the daily news, even down to a granular level.
So today I am looking and I see this story about Ron Paul being a racist, or about some old remarks attributed to him, or some other sort of thing.
The story didn’t startle me as much as it may have others. I do believe Paul when he says he did not write the things that are being attributed to him, but they apparently were written under the banner of a political newsletter bearing his name. Regardless of whether he wrote it or not, he should have protected his “brand” (his name) a little better.
But all of that is neither here nor there, the real question is whether or not the Internet will shut down if Ron Paul does not receive the Republican nomination for president?
An acquaintance of mine recently boldly stated that the Internet would indeed shut down if Paul does not get the nomination at his house one night after he had imbibed at least a couple of pints of Irish Whiskey.
I do not know this person or his political views very well. I do know that he is smallish, has a tendency toward a Napoleon complex at times, and that if he has an opinion at all about something, it is a STRONG opinion.
I really didn’t engage him in a debate about the merits, or not, of Ron Paul but I did ask him why he thought Paul’s failure to get nominated would cause the Information Superhighway to come to a screeching halt.
(The following is cleaned up for clarity and because this is a family establishment and because my writing skills are not sharp enough to adequately do justice to the drunken blathering my ears heard.)
“Have you seen Slashdot? The programmers and web developers are going f%$*king crazy over Ron Paul. He’s the best f%$*king candidate out there. He’s f%$*king incredible. F%$*k Hillary. I will kick her in her f%$*king teeth. If he doesn’t get the f%$*king nomination, and get elected president, the f%$*king web people will revolt and the f%$*king Internet will shut down. I f%$*king mean it.”
Or something about like that.
I didn’t really engage after that. I know, and knew, so little about Paul other than his belief that all currencies should be legal and viable in the US which doesn’t seem to make a lot of sense to me, but I am just a web designer, not a developer, so obviously I cannot understand the higher points, indeed the internal logic, of the Paul-ian platform. I just politely waited for the right moment when I could escape from the porch to back in the house.
I didn’t really think about much, but as the weeks have gone on it seems more and more people are drinking Paul’s Kool-Aid. They are coming out of the “f%$*king” woodwork. There are on the corner of Moreland and Freedom Parkway on the weekends. Homemade stickers and grafitti tags are popping up on city buses. I hear stories about campaign staffers surveying land in Ghana in case the election doesn’t work out so all of the web developers will have somewhere to take the Internet when they shut it down.
After reading the article about the racist remarks today, I started thinking about Mr. Paul again. It may me think of Lyndon Johnson wanting to perpetrate a rumor that his opponent had sexual congress with barnyard animals just so the opponent would have to publicly deny it. Once a rumor is released to the major press, whether it is true or false, the damage is usually done. Or is it in this case?
Since the Internet is apparently nearly totally run by Paul supporters, don’t they have the means of quashing this rumor before it gets out of hand? Can they not easily spread rumors just as bad or worse about his opponents? I f they have the power to shut down the Internet if he does not get the nomination, then the least they could do for their leader is help a brother out in a time of need.
So I decided to do a search of the FEC campaign contribution database at washingtonpost.com. I inserted “programmer” for the “occupation” and chose different candidates from the “candidate” dropdown menu. Whereas I realize this is less than scientific as there can be other “programmers” than “computer programmers, (I am sure that Paul’s supporters could provide a much better algorithm and statistical model for determining this info) scanning the list seemed to reassure me that most programmers were the ones that my drunk, angry friend seemed to be referring to.
Close scrutiny and a little basic math showed led to some frightening observations. Indeed, my little, napoleonic, angry, drunk friend might be right. Paul far outdoes his other Republican candidates when it comes to geek contributions. He even far outdoes the Democrats except Obama who he is still beating by a decent margin. See the chart below for the actual numbers I found.
I am amazed that a drunken, off-the-cuff comment seems to be backed up by freely available information.
I am also scared though, because if the geeks revolt, and shut down the Internet, where will I get my porn, or send emails to mom, or waste time at work, or watch all of those “must-see” YouTube videos? Not to mention, what will I do for a living?
Maybe run for president?Contributions to presidential candidates using "programmer" as the search criteria for the "occupation" in the FEC databaseCandidate Contributions ($) # of contributors Paul$67,749129Obama$62,192300Clinton$30,05851Giuliani$20,05027Edwards$18,566176Romney$11,05020McCain$8,75245Kucinich$4,54524Huckabee$7206 -
‘t remember
It’s sweet that I kissed your cheek,
but what I wanted was full-on-the-lips kissing,
the cheek was nice enough and all,
but I still imagine tongues in each other’s mouths,
don’t remember what it felt like with you,
but I imagine.
And I imagine holding hands at movies and
while we drove down the road.
I imagine I imagine many things that never existed.
I imagine your hair all piled up on your head in the morning,
and the time that I decided french toast would be good for several weekends.
I imagine one million cigarettes on the front porch
and a few hundred foot rubs that I could’ve done better,
and I imagine the time we went to Italy in the summer and
decided to stay in bed for one whole day.
I imagine the day I proposed with the ring I thought to be ill-fated
and you said yes and I imagine the time in late spring
when we got married out by the river and we were barefoot.
I imagine the kids, all off to college now,
and retirement fast approaching, and possibly the cliche RV in the near future.
I imagine, despite a full working furnace,
and the thermostat turned up amply high,
that the bed will be cold tonight,
the pillow will too. -
This is the new year
So many friends of mine here in my space tonight, some that know me, many that do not. I will soon post the favorite albums (CDs) of the year post. We should all wait it out till morning. We should all love each other and suffer in the morning. We need that commitment to one another, since we have nothing that equals it in our past or current life. I love each and every one of you. I do. I promise our parents will ever know the difference.
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Rabbit punches
And she keeps hitting me in the fucking kidneys. And I like it. No I don’t. He’s kicking me in the teeth. I am sorry. No teeth. No luck. All sorrow. Good weekend. I just want to read that book that yo wrote back then.
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Quills
There’s a drunk and another drunk at the bar and they are both failing horribly at telling the punchline to some jokes that they earlier have practiced way too much. He’s Andre and she’s sally. The people on TV are talking too much about porcupines.
If I could bite off the ass of a porcupine it would mean so little. I would still just be the guy who bit off the ass of a porcupine. It would not win me points on match.com. It would make me pariah amongst the friends.
I could love though. Mouth full of quills.
Quills inmy mouth, writing the things I cannot say on my own.
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Holidays
I don’t like writing about the good stuff. Not necessarily the bad stuff. Just the difficult stuff. That is what I prefer.
But tonight driving through this town tonight, during this time of the year that I have a psychologically disposition to breaking down, was like flying. I have laughed until my sides hurt. I have realized there is someone that knows the ends of all of my family stories when the beginnings are told.
I think there are songs that can and will be sung.
I think I will make it through these holidays, and the rest will become easier. -
Wartime
There are soldiers out tonight, even in this city. I have seen them in their clandestine suits. I have wondered about them through dreams.
Tomorrow will be another dream day for this fallen one. I am not broken or foresaken. Just fallen at this point.
From the top of the hill over there the scout can see everything and with that everything he cannot move. He want to tell his comrades what there is to come, but he just stand still and the whole world passes, at once, through his eye.
That is the nature of the scout. He has to understand it all. The soldier should understand very little if anything. There is this and there’s the hospital. There’s a nurse with a tender touch, or there’s another day.
When they saw the whites of the eyes the muskets came ablastin’. The scout dreamed, closed his eyes and composed letters to his wife.
There was 30 shot initially, and one when they came face to face. Was it brothers? Of course it was. In some place or not with a name or not. No names on placards or plce cards. There would be no wedding or funeral. Just some dirt sifting through fingers.
One last look at the moon.
My point being that the man who took the bullet and the one who sent the bullet are one and the same.